Hiding in the Corner: Bullying, a Life Change

    I don't know if you used to have a feeling that so long for hiding in a corner without anyone but you?
    I was bullied by my classmates when I was a 10-year-old elementary school student. I could clearly remember at that time, there would always be something "really dirty" put on my desk before I went in the classroom every morning. I didn't know why they do these to me, and why they hate me so much. All classmates were laughing at me when watching me cleaning up those dirty thing, such as mud, urine, and shit mixed together, or there would be some filthy words written on my desk. I was so afraid that I never told my parents or even my sister about it at that time. However, the worst thing was that my teacher knew everything from the beginning, but she never said a word.
    All these lasted about 2 years which happened everyday at school, and finally ended after the graduation I transferred to a private junior high school. During these 2 years, it was so suffering that I wanted to disappear everyday I woke up. I didn't know how to ask for help at that time, my teacher chose to ignore it, and I didn't want my parents to worried about me so I chose to be quiet. It was a really hard time.
    However, I had found a way to refuge them but it was not a good example. I went to school as usual but I didn't go to classes. There was a forest in my school, and I had found a big secret hole in it and looked like no one ever found it. So, I stayed in the hole all day as a secret base, and it was so weird that my teacher never looking for me and never called my parents to tell them I was disappeared! What a bad teacher! >_<'' From Monday to Friday, I was in the hole as least 3 days a week. Sometimes squirrels and tree-frogs showed up, and I was not scared by them. However, one day, there was a huge-snake with gorgeous stripes on its skin. I was frighten! That was the last time I stayed in the hole, and after that, I didn't get any closer to the forest anymore.
    One of my "quiet" classmate told me after graduation that the reasons why others hated me so much because I was a outsider from urban city (I was studying in a country school), and the stationary I had look better and much more expensive than theirs. And the most important reason they hated me so much because I was so quiet and I never played with them because my parents always picked me up after school, those were the main reasons made them feel I was arrogant that they were not as the same level person as me. I was so surprised when she told me, I had never noticed my behavior made others feel that way. To avoid same thing happen again. I acted really carefully and saw how others reacted stealthy by then. Honestly, it was really tired that seems like we have to do what people like us to do or what they expect us to be like. Why can't we just be the real me and be liked by others at the same time?
    It took me a long time to think about, and at last, I've got the answer. If you were a quiet person as I used to be, you don't need to push yourself to talk much, but "smile". When my lips don't move up, it makes my face look serious or even in a bad mood. No one would like a person who is not kind. A simple smile could change people's impressions of you.
    It's true. Even though I've found the answer a little bit late (or I might not have to experience the bullying, but I do thank it for making me a better person '^_^'), smiling really change my relationship between others. Everyone has his/her flaws, you have to accept yours first then you could understand others. Don't try "too hard" to show your specialties to others, everyone has specialties, it might take long time but act the real you by a comfortable way others could see you at last.
    I hope today's sharing could encourage someone whom is suffering from something like I had. I'm still finding a way to be a better person. But I think it's important that we have to realize what responsibilities we are facing right this moment. Do the best is always the best way for others to know you and to keep rumors away. Let's fighting! ☺♥♥♥☺

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